Ups and downs, and goodbyes

All the great things come to end, and so do the ones that aren't that great. Ups and downs, this is life. It's like an ECG, when there's no ups and downs, you aren't alive anymore. There are times, when you wish that time froze, that the people around you would stay with you, forever and ever. And then there are those, when you wish time just went by fast, because you just can't take it anymore. When you're sick of doing the same old things over and over again, when you want a change in life. A chance do the things that you like, and to like the things that you do. But the real challenge comes, when you feel both the ways, at once.

The joy of clearing your entrance, the smile when you make it with good marks, the relief when you realise you're finally going to achieve what you always wanted for yourself. The feeling  is inexplicable, you only know it when you go through it. But it's only one side of the coin.. Also comes with it a feeling of incompleteness, for you know you're going to move on in life now. And to move on, you must let go.. let go those memories, the happiness, those friends that once meant the life to you. Your heart sinks a little every time when you think about your people not being in the same place as you. For eighteen years, we've lived in a protected environment, it was more fun than it was a challenge. We were just getting ready for the world, I don't even know if I'm ready yet. But the time has come, it was always coming, I just refused to see it.

Sometimes I ask myself, is it worth it? Is it worth all the pain, the parting, the sacrifice, the hard work? But then it dawns on me - Where we are now, we worked hard to get here too. Left some places behind, some people, some great memories. However tough the journey may have been, it was always worth it. That's why we're so reluctant to move on now, isn't it? Some great memories they have been, but to live those memories of the past, we can't afford to stop living new ones in the present. Parting is but a part of life, and we'll have to deal with it many more times in the years to come. So enjoy the present, and gear up for the future. Take those memories with you, and stay in touch with the people that matter. With every passing day, is coming a better tomorrow. maybe it's for good, and that's why they call it 'goodbyes'... I had the time of our life here in school, and will always chersih the memories...

Another turning point a fork stuck in the road
Time grabs you by the wrist directs you where to go
So make the best of this test and don't ask why
It's not a question but a lesson learned in time

It's something unpredictable but in the end
It's right I hope you've had the time of your life

So take the photographs and still frames in your mind
Hang it on a shelf in good health and good time
Tattoos and memories and dead skin on trial
For what it's worth it was worth all the while

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The Selection Process

The waving trees outside, the wonderful weather, birds chirping, the quenching rain, the ecstatic lightning, mumbling voices, those happy faces.. All those things that we walk past everyday, that we take for granted. Little do we realise their importance until we're deprived of them.. until... it's exam time. *Drumroll*

Haha dramatic much? :P Well this is as much drama a pre-medical student preparing for his entrances gets in his life.. Okay, so for the record, I am a student who just passed his senior year at high school (hopefully) and is now preparing and giving his medical entrances. Anyone who has been through this phase knows how monotonous life gets around this time. One does not simply get into a medical college, yupp, that's right!

With giving medical entrance exam, there's more than just selection pressure on your plate. For an average Indian student like me with a family tree as big as an overgrown banyan, it's not rare to find obnoxious and anxious distant relatives building high hopes on you, and often taking your selection for granted. (I mean all of us have this uncle or aunt that has already started calling you by 'doctor' instead of your name).. And so by the time you get past 12th, the spotlight is on you, and everyone's waiting to watch the drama. It makes anyone want to 'screw it' and run away! With all the undue pressure, the enigma of selection process and amidst the great wall of books that surround you, it's easy to fall short on morale.
Correction: It's impossible not to!

So that's where I am right now, low on morale but not given up yet! It's 29 days to freedom and 29 days to prove myself to get into a college. And that's where this blog comes in. I'm working on the psychological part of my mind, I'm telling it that I'm going to get into a good college, and I'm going to become a doctor :P And I'm going to maintain this blog through the times..



I've wanted to write for a while now, and this will be my platform. For the next five years in medical college, I will capture my journey here. From a student who is yet unsure that he will get into college, to a successful doctor, the journey is going to be full of hurdles and adventurous challenges. It's a journey I've started and it's one that I've wanted all my life. Hell yes, this works! I'm motivated. Time for action. Watch this space, it's going to get better! That doctor in the picture is going to get a face soon, and it looks a lot like me ;)

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